I know what you are thinking. "It's been three days. Calm down." I understand that reaction. I would have had that reaction three days ago. But three days ago I was a different person. That person is gone.
Day 1: I walked into the gym for the first time in my life. I did not know what to do. A man near the dumbbell rack saw me standing there and handed me a 20lb dumbbell without saying a word. I did curls. I did 3 sets of 10. Something happened during the last set that I cannot describe. A warmth. A fullness. A feeling that I was more solid than I had been when I walked in.
Day 2: I went back. The same man was there. He nodded at me. Just a nod. Nothing else. I picked up the same dumbbell. I did the same curls. The feeling came back faster this time. By set 2 it was already there. The warmth. The solidity. The sense that the person curling was more real than the person who had walked through the door.
Day 3: Today. I woke up and my first thought was the dumbbell. Not breakfast. Not work. The dumbbell. I went to the gym at 6 AM. The man was not there yet. I picked up the dumbbell myself. I did not need him to hand it to me anymore. I am already different. I am already changed.
I know it has only been three days. I know. But three days was enough. Three days was everything.